let it go // words of wisdom


LATELY, I’VE FOUND myself muttering these words. Deep breath in, deep breath out, let it go, I whisper to no one. When I’m alone on the couch. When I’m in the shower. While I’m walking to the gym.

• It’s been quiet around the blog this week. I’m trying to let that go.

• I may have gone on a bit of a cinnamon heart binge last weekend. That too, I’m trying to let go.

• The pinterest-worthy champagne birthday party I planned to host for myself has turned into a few casual drinks at a bar. I’m also letting that go.

• The spoken words “I just don’t really admire your ambition or lifestyle”. Ya, I’m really trying to let that one go.

It’s one thing to hold yourself to a high standard and to set goals. It’s another to not be able to accept reality, adjust expectations and simply push on.

The things that are weighing you down – let those go so that your hands, your heart and your head are free to hold onto something else.



The Dream Is Free | Words

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LAST WEDNESDAY WAS a weird day. In a way, I feel like I quit my job and ran away. With the holiday season, being back in Toronto and then jetting off to an early retirement in Fort Myers, it was very easy to forget what was really going on in my life.

Last Wednesday I woke up and was met with the reality of my choices. I was finally back in Vancouver, and the routine I’d spent the last 3 years building had changed. I got up, but I didn’t go over the bridge to work. I went to the couch.

Up until now it’s been sort of funny. “hahaha, sooooo I quit my job”, I’d drop like a bomb for shock value. I lived for people’s reaction. Last Wednesday, to myself, it stopped being funny and just felt like a bomb dropping.

There were up and down moments for sure. Not setting an alarm was an up. Twiddling my thumbs thinking “I have no purpose in life” that part wasn’t awesome.

The dream is free but the hustle is sold separately.

As I sat there I thought, “Okay, this is what you wanted. Now go do something about it”.

I had a million projects I was itching to start, but I had no idea where to begin. Overwhelmed is the understatement of the year.

It took me 1 day of feeling “what the fuck” to find my groove. It was the small pleasures like having the time to really cook and enjoy my breakfast or getting my butt to the gym early, (but not at an ungodly hour) that made me feel at peace with my new life. There’s something to this, I thought. As long as I can make money there is definitely something to this.

By Friday I had made my local coffee shop my office and worked feverishly to wrap up a few freelance projects. I was even inspired to finally start designing a freelance brand for myself (more on that soon!).

Now I’m hungry to work and I’m excited to keep figuring out how I can do that from home. This may seem odd, but the pleasure I get out of walking away from my computer to make lunch; like a real lunch, a lunch that you might not even attempt for dinner, and then having the time to clean up after myself before getting back to “work”… I can’t describe it.


1 // Do not hit snooze. I still set an alarm for 7:00am and hit the gym by 8 or 9. Starting my day like this means I don’t have time to get in a funk between the sheets. Staying in bed too long could be the worst decision you ever make.

2 // The more you do the more you want to do. Just start somewhere and the rest will come.

3//  Make lists. I have lists coming out the wazoo. I have lists of books I want to read, blog posts I want to write and daily to-do lists. Because I’m not necessarily being paid for all the things I’m getting up to (like writing blogs, designing my personal brand etc.) having a record of what I’ve accomplished acts like a form of currency to myself. I know these things are an investment in my creative being which ultimately will lead to real work, so as long as I keep knocking items off my lists I finish my day feeling satisfied.

4// Get out of the house. Go to a coffee shop, a park. Go do something. It’ll keep you inspired and the fresh air will do wonders for your brain. Plus a little human interaction is good for the soul, even if it’s just “I’ll have a tall almond milk latte”.

5// Bask in it. I keep reminding myself to enjoy this time. I don’t know that I’ll always be a “work from home, for myself” person so I’m mindful to enjoy that right now I can do things like laundry and groceries in the middle of the day and still be productive.

One of my reasons for making the change I did was that life was feeling so difficult. I wasn’t convinced that life should be so hard. I now know that to be true.

Freelancing or working for a company or whatever, work is work and it’s hard work but that doesn’t mean it has to be hard.

You can have the dream but you still have to hustle.

Imma hustling over here to make my dream work.



A Year From Now by Kelly Cummings


EIGHT DAYS AGO most of us promised ourselves that “this will be the year”. I wonder how many of us have already succumb to our old habits? Or even completely forgotten the resolutions we just set?

A year from now you’ll wish you’d started today.

This feels so timely to me as I type this.

Today, I am so glad I started a year ago.

I don’t really like talking about this stuff. But it’s the stuff I always like to read so I think it’s time I repay the world with a bit of my own vulnerability. Besides, one week into the new year with people all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed over their resolutions, I hope this helps keep both motivation and spirits high.



These shorts are 3 years old.

Last November they didn’t come to Mexico with me because they didn’t fit.

This past summer I could get into them on days when I was feeling particularly slim (and knew I wouldn’t have to sit down for too long) I know you know what I’m talking about…

I took this photo a few weeks ago when I was trying to pack for Florida.


That moment was pretty much the first time that I noticed for myself that hard work had actually paid off. Other people were telling me but in my eyes I looked and felt pretty much the same.

And I have to say it’s a pretty weird experience to find yourself swimming in your own clothes. To be honest, while my initial reaction was excitement it slowly turned into frustration as I realized my entire summer wardrobe now looked just plain ridiculous on me. Sorta, Charlie Chaplin-esque, ya know? And then of course, I got mad at myself for being frustrated that I’d actually achieved something great. Oh the emotional roller coaster, I tell ya!


In case you were wondering the title of this photo is “gun show”.  Don’t be fooled though, while the hours spent at the gym helped, the filter really helps. Hahaha.

So what’s the secret?

I hate to disappoint but it’s “eat right and work out”. Actually, no. I take that back. Because I’ve always been an active person with a pretty good sense of eating well. It’s more like “eat REALLY right and work out REALLY hard”. Yup that’s more like it*.

So there you have it. Whatever your goals are this year, I hope this post has inspired you to start today.

As for 2014, well to be honest I haven’t really sat down to think about that yet. Maybe I’ll start by adding “stop procrastinating” to my resolutions list. Maybe. Ha!

*I’ve just been inspired to share more about what I’ve learned and found worked well for me. Stay tuned for another post on that…soon.